I feel like a kid at Christmas unwrapping that Red Rider BB Gun. I’m writing music news — and only music news — all this week for Inside.com (and the Inside app for Android, iOs, and Blackberry). Follow the news feed here.
I have found myself in a music journalism position over and over again in life. If I hadn’t found one, I created one. I remember being on the air for mornings at KZZP — well before the Internet got all fancy and we had Facebook, social media, even video. I didn’t even know what a CMS was back then. I probably only had five things online to log into and one was Hotmail… So things weren’t very far advanced. But I decided I would somehow create a “celebrity guestbook” feature on our website since we had so many famous people coming through our studios. I was met with resistance so it never came to be. I remember my morning show host bitching at me, “You’re wasting your time with this web stuff! It’s not going anywhere!” Now it’s 2015 and we can add that to the list of “I told you so’s” I’ve given him over the years. He also thought “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” would be a flop and wouldn’t let me play my interview with Nia Vardalos and John Corbett on the air! Ha!
Times have changed and I am happy to change with the times. It’s 2015 and I have 16 years of radio under my belt, a liberal arts degree from Boston University, a journalism certificate from Paradise Valley Community College, actual print/web/online journalism experience, and just basic life experience. (Yes, I have been blessed with much life experience most wish they never have to have). I think I’m just so happy to keep my journalism skills going right now. I’m also happy to be back in love with writing again.
Thanks for checking out my blog and progress this year. I have a freelance writing career as well as a creative writing practice that involves three novels in progress as well as much poetry… There is a lot more to come!
I’m on week eight of The Artist’s Way now. So I thought I’d share what this program is doing for me as an artist, writer, etc. It’s the “etc” that I didn’t know was there. There are many issues TAW brings up that you never quite knew were there. I knew some of the issues obviously, that I was a blocked creative and that this needed to be fixed. I also knew this was likely due to a few life experiences that stood out in my mind. But I had no idea how far this would take me and I love it!
I’m great at morning pages and awful at artist dates. I choose to do my pages on 750words.com.
Yes, I’ve dealt with some of those unsavory life experiences and early childhood scars that became on barriers to my creativity. Fun stuff!
I’m allowing myself to play again. Play guitar, play in general… I’m unemployed, so you’d think this wouldn’t be a problem. But like a typical blocked artist and recovering addict, I quickly moved to fill up my schedule. I have a part-time job at a recovery center, I have my own freelance writing business now, and I am still running You Deserve Reiki.
I have found my creative energies seeping into YDR. I have redecorated my therapy room:
I have new ideas for the blog. They are not posted yet. I’m deciding to take the blog into a new direction and write more posts about self-care, which is the idea behind me getting into Reiki in the first place three years ago. Self-care is the idea behind the name, “You Deserve Reiki.” I also believe self-care is essential to our survival as human beings! So more posts about it are about to happen. I can give people Reiki, but I think I will give clients more if they receive some self-care ideas as well.
Like I mentioned, I am giving myself more time to play guitar. I am even seeking out some lessons.
I also found this fun app I am just getting into called Yousician.
I haven’t gotten too far into it yet. I think when I do, it will require some in-app purchases. That may be OK. The point is to have fun and enjoy playing the guitar without my pesky perfectionist tendencies popping in. Also, the point is to get back into playing like I did in college when I was 18 — right before quitting the guitar altogether for a full-time radio job. I had to drop out of guitar class because of the hours I worked, so I put it down completely. Total black and white/all or nothing thinking! I got carried away in career, life and addiction. Now it’s 18 years later. I AM GOING TO PLAY GUITAR NOW.
There are other silly things too. I’m putting a lot of creative energy into a new wardrobe because I have a new life that requires a dress code for my job at the recovery center. I’ve also lost 30 pounds since September by eating an auto-immune-friendly, anti-inflammatory, mostly-Paleo diet. I’ve had a lot of fun hitting thrift stores to create a new look. It’s risk-free since I’m being thrifty about it. I’ve found some really awesome clothes for a fraction of what I’d pay for brand-new. It takes the anxiety out of rebuilding a wardrobe since I don’t have to worry about the money aspect of it. This is all a part of self-care too — especially the diet which is presided over by a doctor.
I put a lot of energy into organizing my writing space at home. Sometimes, the closest thing to an artist date for me has been coloring a mandala (adult coloring is a trendy new thing now) or watching Orange Is The New Black on Netflix. Giving myself time and space to play has been one of my biggest challenges!
One of the most important things is the writing. That’s the reason I am doing this. I am tackling issues about the creative writing (or lack thereof) in my life. Now I’m actively working on one of my three novels. I just started a short story. I’m always writing poems. In an effort to get more serious and focus about where this is all going, I also purchased a stack of books from Writer’s Digest.
I fiercely defend my writing time. I’ve turned inward a lot because of this. I’m hyper focused on myself in a selfish way. But recovery is a selfish act. Yes, this is creative recovery as described in TAW. But I see this also as a larger part of my recovery from addiction as well. There was a point where I lost myself. More likely, I lost myself again and again over the years. Now my job is to get myself back more and more (I thought I had already but more was revealed). My job is to give myself back my hopes, dreams, my ability to play, and those original yearnings I had towards fulfilling my purpose.
I am proud to announce you’ll soon be seeing my name pop up on Inside.com and the Inside app (for iOs, Blackberry, and Android). Time to put that news writing and journalism experience to work!
I made this video about it because I’ve been making lots of videos for my Wichita radio listening audience on my Facebook fan page since I’ve been off the air in January. Making videos and talking to my listening audience on social media has been tremendously creative and healing for me in my time of unemployment — which I now consider the greatest adventure of my life.
This has been a great opportunity to return to writing. Period. I’m back to working on novels and poetry. I’m taking The Artist’s Way course. I’ve landed four freelance writing gigs so far in just three months. I’ve gone to work part-time as a Peer Mentor in Training at the Substance Abuse Center of Kansas’ Crossover Recovery Center. I’m also still running my Reiki practice out of White Dove. I’m busy doing such a ton of creative things that life is a joy!
So thank you for reading this blog, watching the videos, liking the page, and otherwise just coming along on the journey!